An Open Letter

Dear ......


You have given me so much metaphor but why can’t I write it down? I have listened to your every story and actually learned a lot from them, it was magical and I got addicted to your presence both physically and technologically. I started falling from day one. The hardest part is the acceptance that we can only have this friendship, and I chose to respect your offer because maybe in the end your right. I began missing you when you started to change bit by bit everyday. I felt the changes and it scared me. How cliché is this but really, “change is the only constant in this life”. I wanted to hold on to those memories we’ve shared. It’s still very much clear in my mind. Call it Love, obsession, or what not; all I know is that I’m happy when I see you, when I hear you, when you have time with me. You said you didn’t want clingy people, you start pulling off when you feel the needy part of the relationship. I was too afraid to show you I am actually needy, clingy at that. But I tried to fight it because I didn’t want to lose the connection, our so called friendship.
Tonight my thoughts on you again, I miss you tonight and what gives? The sad part is I can’t do anything. I can’t even say I miss you or I love you because I know you’ll only say “Sayad lang?”
The hardest part is letting go of this love that I know is the most natural feeling that I have in my system. It’s like acting the whole time, a façade that seems normal, because I also wanted to believe that I’m ok. But I know in this lifetime I have loved but didn’t lose, because I was fixed…


Thankful,

Peter Lyle

I wanted change...

The energy for change is too strong, i have been dreaming about it for 3days now. I want to move. To be able to start something new. The focus is for myself. I want to give up my comfort zone and i feel that the timing is just right. Start something that would have greater meaning than what i actually have.

I'll start to keep a list of things that i want to achieve this year. A new year for me as i turn 31 this 19th. Hopefully with lots of prayers i would achive these goals. Give me some energy!!!

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Again again again! c",)

I soo miss my blogspot! Resurrect the dead! hahaha! My birthday is coming up and i think i have lots of things to write about. Well no promises. But i'll try to keep up. Missing my friends mucho! c",)

I wanna be a Supermodel! c",)

Strike A Pose!!! Click click...

I have always wanted to do this. Post some of my crazy sexy pix taken by my friend Nadz. Oohlala O% gym; 100% all natural flabs & love handles! Lol c",)

Special Thanks to "Kuya" my favorite korean retailer in Divisoria...for providing my cheap clothes harhar!!!

Board Shorts: Php80

Fake D&G underwear: Php130

Low neck Knitted Longsleeves: Folded & Hung on sale Php250

Enjoy the rest of the summer everyone! Mwahugs! c",)

Weekend Snapshot

Bonding, friendship, relaxation, laughter & a great place called Dakak! Now that's what i call FUN! c",) Have a great Week ahead everyone! Kisses!

Karisik Mavi

Just want to share the Art Photography of Karisik Mavi, great work! c",)

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Pssst I have a story to tell...

It all happened last night. It was a boring ordinary night in my life when I can’t seem to focus & I lack interest in just about anything. I tried watching DVDs after watching American Idol, but I can’t even appreciate a good movie. I switched the TV & DVD off & decided to just dozed off & sleep. But even sleep does not interest me or is not interested with me. C’mon I don’t know what’s in my head. I have to decide what to do for the night. No rush…just think & focus.

I decided to go to Butterfly, a friend’s bar. Got my laptop as my ever reliable non-complaining companion, & just hang-out with whoever is at the bar. Lucky me there are some friends I know just chillin’ at the Bar area.

It was around 11:30 pm when I was about to go home, suddenly of all mysteries the late comer would interest me. I would say he got my eyes. I opted to stay a little longer. He was alone, in a little melancholic manner as I vibe it. I caught a stare & that was my go signal. It was as if I’m back in high school again, struggling whether or not to make the first move. Funny I went to the comfort room twice in 15mins. for what, for comfort? LOL! Finally got all my guts to approach him & introduce myself. Pls. note that it’s actually my first time to do this. Late bloomer I guess. Tell me what you think?

Here goes:

Me: Hi! Uhhhh solo? Or your waiting for someone?
Him: Yup solo.
Me: People inside seem to worry your alone here.
Him: (gives a smile) I’m ok.
Me: Can I have your name?
Him: Nick.
Me: Lyle.
Him: ahh Lyle.
Me: So if you need company feel free to just get inside, join the group.
Then I left. Lame first try!!! Ughhhh! I should have offered to keep him company, just the two of us.

But I hope there’s second chance serendipity. Grab grab grab! C”,)